PASSION, TEARS, AND TRUST
This morning I was
passionate enough to make several phone calls to U.S. Senators in our Nation’s
Capital, regarding the Impeachment hearings. My voice shook, and I had to
compose myself before each call. It reminded me of my younger years when I was adamantly
involved in Civil Rights marches. I guess the passion never goes away, no
matter how many years pass by.
I can remember those days
when I marched for Civil Rights and got expelled from high school for my
participation. I remember the devastation of hearing of Bobby Kennedy’s
assassination, while I was in the midst of working on his campaign.
Today, I was at the point
of tears so many times, but I’m okay now.
We had a phrase when we
marched for freedom and Civil Rights in the 60’s – yes, I am that old! When a
subject or idea contained truth and real substance, we said: “That’s heavy!” It
meant that the concept was deep, solid, and rock bottom truth.
I had the day off today,
and the spirit of God led to me read Psalm 56. It’s one of those heavy chapters
that David wrote, in a time of grave seriousness when he was contemplating the
deep truths of life.
He starts in verse 1,
saying: “Be merciful unto me, O God: for man would swallow me up;
he fighting daily oppresseth me.” Then he continues: “Mine enemies would daily swallow me up: for they be many that fight against me, O thou most High.” Remember, our enemies are spiritual forces that work around us in people, the atmosphere, circumstances, the things we see and hear, etc.
he fighting daily oppresseth me.” Then he continues: “Mine enemies would daily swallow me up: for they be many that fight against me, O thou most High.” Remember, our enemies are spiritual forces that work around us in people, the atmosphere, circumstances, the things we see and hear, etc.
But David was able and made
himself focus on God, no matter what his heart was suffering: “What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee. In God I will
praise his word, in God I have put my trust (vv. 3-4a). I feel like he said the
next line with great emphasis and conviction on these four words - “I will not fear.”
The whole sentence reads: “I will not fear what flesh can do unto me” (v. 4b).
Then
he continues: “Every day they wrest my words:
all their thoughts are against me for evil. They gather
themselves together, they hide themselves, they mark my steps,
when they wait for my soul. Shall they escape by iniquity? In thine anger
cast down the people, O God.” David didn’t mince words but spoke
honestly and rawly before God, his maker.
David was in despair and felt that he was being unfairly
overwhelmed by those demons that hated him. They caused him to be so despondent
and sorrowful that he cried.
The next verse tells us how much God loves us, so much that He
actually is aware of every tear we shed. No one else may ever see us cry, but
God does, and He is so concerned about us that He collects every tear we cry! David
said: “Thou tellest my wanderings” (v. 8). This passage can be understood as: “You
have kept track of and kept a record of my every sadness, my misery, my sorrow,
my troubles, my tossings and turning in the night.”
God has been watching every single thing that we have
suffered, and David tells us that every hurtful, horrible, tearful event is recorded
in God’s book. Not only that, but God Almighty puts our tears in His bottle. Does
He have a bottle for a whole lifetime of our tears? Yes, He cares that much. He
keeps a record of all the times the devil has caused us pain in any way. David
knew the ways of God, and he reminded Him: “Put thou my tears into thy bottle: are
they not in thy book?” (v. 8).
God made us with the same ability David had: to trust in God’s
love for him. Let’s embrace this wonderful truth. I think we all need it. “When
I cry unto thee, then shall mine enemies turn back: this I know;
for God is for me” (v. 9).
Today I felt despondent and sad, and I did my best to try to
make a difference. Sometimes life is heavy, but we have to remember, like
David, that God is always there to record the wrongdoings and to collect our
tears. He loves us and will make things right for us, even if it takes longer
than might want.
Love, Carolyn
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